Sometimes I see people 'over' analyze their symptoms and it
bothers me to no end because I just fear that they are setting
themselves up for a greater disappointment if they get the dreaded BFN.
On the other hand I know how difficult it is to really notice something
about your body that doesn't usually happen and think...is this it? If
we ignore the twinges, the soreness, the dizziness then we could really
miss out on something important, right? When you're TTC you're trained
to notice flutters that never existed before taking this journey. Your
body sends you through a roller coaster full of these amazing twists and
turns and when the nausea hits, you feelsatisfied and sit back to enjoy
the ride because that bundle of joy is the reward at the end of the
roller coaster.
I'd like to know some of the things
that you've heard others mention when they ask "Could I be Pregnant?"
I've heard, I took a 15 minute nap today, could I be? My stomach turned
at the sight of daylight, could I be??? I peed five times, count them
1-2-3-4-5 times today, so....could I be??? As ridiculous as it may seem,
we've all been there in one form or another.
So, here I am
one week into my two week wait, and I'm ignoring anything that can be
construed as a sign. It's a battle but I'm determined. Shhh...Don't tell
anyone, but I think I'm winning! I'm slaying those creepy what if's with my weapons of mass determination. I'm stomping on those sneaky but why's before they can steal my sanity. I'm conquering the 'could I be'
questions before the thought can be fully completed in my mind. "We
will not be taken into the night (but maybe in the morning with first
morning urine). Yep, I'm in charge, I'm a warrior, and I will not be
defeated!
Who wants to join me in Operation Halt "Over" Analyzing Symptoms? If we all join together, I think we can take them.
So,
with all of that said...Fertility Friend tells me that I have 62 early
pregnancy points and my boobies have been incredibly heavy and so sore.
Could I be...???
Nah, I'm just kidding! You thought I was serious right?
But no really, my nipples are soooo tender...Could I be...???
No really, I'm just joking!
But if I weren't joking, and I'm 8DPO/IUI, I mean, hypothetically, could I be...???
The
thing is, no matter how strong we promise ourselves we'll be 'this
round,' we all become victims of the infamous doubts and possibilities,
and we drive ourselves crazy, while our DH's standby
helplessly and wonder who the heck is BFN and BFP and what did he do to
their wives? It's not our fault of course, blame it on the clomid, blame
it on the stress of TTC, blame it on AF or TOM (Time of the Month)
even. Let's gather around and flat out ignore the possibility that maybe
waiting it out and being realistic about 'signs,' may cure us!
Ladies,
we have to take control of our TTC sanity and not allow 'them' to
defeat us. It's ugly out there, it's emotional out there. It's downright
scary out there! But I'll hold your hand through it all, give you
plenty of {{{Hugs}}} and encouragement. I will listen, celebrate, and
graciously accept your shoulder to lean on, so that I can make it
through this too. I have faith in us, together, we can do this!
I think we are all guilty of being hyper-sensitive of any sensation our body feels while ttc. We are training our bodies and, more so, our minds to be super aware of what is happening. I will gladly admit that the first 3 cycles I was medicated, I was writing down everything I was feeling. I didn't even ovulate the first two cycles! I believe that, for me, I have begun to understand what is a correct symptom and what is a mocked symptom. Also, it took me to receive my first BFP to understand the difference. Symptom spotting makes you neurotic! It's not healthy, but at the time, you feel like you need to grab on to any last straw you can to get your BFP!
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